I feel like…

I feel like I’ve been going through a dark night of the soul these last couple of years the unexpected always pulling the rug out from under me, too many changes in the wind for me to count altering the course of direction that I thought I was headed in, creating chaos and conflict daring me to move, forcing my hand at times. It’s as if the universe knows something I don’t. Could it be fate, destiny if there even is such a thing, maybe my manifestations? Honestly I don’t know anymore but I do know I’m tired of holding on to people who don’t care to hold on to me. To the things that no longer serve me. I’m done fighting the universe, I’m done fighting myself. I like to think that I am a reflection of the universe so maybe it’s time I pay attention to what it is trying to tell me, what the part of me that sees the unseen wants. It’s time to shift my bones and step out of my fear, my worries and trust that everything is going to work out the way that it is meant to. That everything is happening the way it was meant to. It’s time for me to get out of my own way, release the part of me that is stubborn to change and let things be, allow things to play out and see where I am led to next.

© Aanchal Gounder

12 thoughts on “I feel like…

  1. I think changes are an integral part of our lives, nothing remains consistent, though this concept seems simple trust me even I struggle to understand this. Moreover it very tough to understand people, especially one who is the closest. The universe always gives signs and we as a part of it have the ability to understand but we are too ignorant while dealing with our issues. This piece of yours shows courage and a zeal to leave behind the darkness and move forward. And it’s not easy to tell if the way forward is full of light or the same dark alley you have worked before. But just how everything around you changes, you have to go bring a change too. I have always followed your Writing and although most of the times it is filled with a sense of despair and is a reflection of your own self, it’s raw, it beautiful. I only wish you remain to be amazing and stay well and safe .Take care Aanchal

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  2. I do get what you’ve written….Coz I can relate to your writing….”dark night of the soul”….but you know….darkness plays an important part….it leads us to light…right…”I’m done fighting the universe”….don’t fight yourself….you aren’t the reflection…you are the universe….things would simply dissolve….& you, my friend will evolve….don’t underestimate your own power, shine & strength…it’s a phase that you see….when you look in the mirror your face….look at the stars surrounding the darkness….they’re the intense spots of burning light….observe them next time in the darkness ✨

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    1. I try to remind myself that without darkness there would be no light that out of darkness light was born but sometimes when I’m in the thick of it ..it feels impossible but it is a moment in time and I know this will pass and I will be the better for it, honestly, this needed to happen it’s showing me who I am and how strong I really am not to mention forcing me to clear out my space and the people that no longer deserve to be in it. Thank you for sharing your beautiful inspiring words, dear friend. It means a lot.

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  3. First off, I’m with you – and I hope you find strength to actualize these thoughts.
    Secondly, this: “It’s time to shift my bones and step out of my fear” is really interesting… I would have thought “shift my perspective” or some other less physical shift… but your choice of words really makes me think.

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