Hey, anxiety…

Hey, anxiety how are you today? Won’t you stop by and say hello. Thoughts magnified. I can’t turn it off. Fear crawling under my skin, burrowing itself. I’m here to stay. The possible, now impossible. Nothing seems simple it’s all so complicated. I can’t figure out how to uncomplicate the collision course you have set me on. My heart racing, crashing, sputtering, barely holding on, a fraction of its power. I took a breath and suffocated in frustration. Look at me now, barefoot, wandering around in a frequency so dark. Aimless. Endless. Collapsing within myself.

© Aanchal Gounder

 

29 thoughts on “Hey, anxiety…

    1. A movie was a good distraction for me today for a couple of hours but I’m back heavy in my thoughts now, sitting in the dark with a candle burning listening to music, nights like this come and go all I can do is wait for it to pass. Anyways, I appreciate you and your thoughtful words thank you for reading.

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  1. I’m no doctor of the medical arts but personally …for a troubled mind or heart, I’ll reason with the inner voice. I’ll write it down and ask myself, are you really bigger then my own existence? Are you that overwhelming that a solution is now inconceivable? I’m a visual sort of person, so a mind map of what’s causing the anxiety will help me….because then I can wrap up that circle with a solution..or ask someone who can.
    In addition…..Simran helps me…
    Stay safe.

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    1. I was once told to learn how to silence the inner voice but it so much easier said than done. I do like that though “Are you bigger than my own existence?” it makes you look at it from a different perspective. Thank you for sharing your own personal experience on how you handle it and thank you for reading, I appreciate it.

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  2. Where is your “happy place”? Can you slow down enough to find it when this is happening? It seems you are on the right track. If you haven’t found your happy place already, take the time to find it when you are not in a ‘tizzy’. Then when you are in a ‘bad spot’, slow down enough to go there. Then, just breathe, slowly and purposefully until you are fully relaxed. I hope this helps. Meditation is a lifesaver if you can master it! Have a Blessed Weekend!

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    1. There is no happy place for me when I’m deep in it honestly I haven’t even found it yet. I have tried meditation in the past I’ve just done very poorly in making a habit out of it. Thank you for reading, have a beautiful weekend!

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  3. All I want to say, I understand the feeling completely. There is no better way to subside anxiety, it is at that moment what can work best. But it’s also the fear that someday their won’t be anything that will work. Expressed it quite brilliantly

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  4. Thanks for passing by and reading my blog. Now how can a person as beautiful as you be anxious? What is anxiety anyway but fear of the unknown. Tomorrow is a new day, a new start with a clean slate. Embrace the dawn!

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  5. Hi Aanchal. I read this post and it hit home for me as I had struggled with anxiety and fear most of my life. For many years I thought I was going to sit in despair for the rest of my life. The fear was suffocating me and no one around me really had a clue as to what was going on inside of me. It was through my faith and surrendering control that led me on a path of hope and life. It’s now what I write about. Praying for you!

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    1. As much as I dislike the fact knowing that there are so many who go through this it is still nice to come across people who understand what it is truly like without me having to explain myself and defend it or try to make them understand. I am so happy to hear that you have found a way to deal with this and through this. Thank you for reading, I appreciate it!

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